random expressing

sometimes I love the uncertainty in this world. Others love their routines, find comfort in decisions already made, the same as before, decided for them, without pain or stress, carried along by a stream of routines that lends them comfort. I love that I do not know quite the color of the sunrise tomorrow. That I am not God, not in control. That something I have never thought of may yet occur, outside of me, changing me, challenging me to break, waking my pure Defiance, calling me Mortal. Jubilant recklessness of the Universe. Order and Chaos do not have to be at odds. For how would we know we were in one, without the other? Order brings comfort, brings conscious sleep. Awake, but sleeping still. But I love that not knowing the sunset outside of me, outside of the bounds of my control, keeps me Wondering. We only wake when we can sleep no more. When something more alive than we causes us to stir. Many find more stress in this than comfort. They turn to the God of pages. The God written by Man in a book, with lines, rules, judgements. The God that forces Order on the Chaos. The God that tells you how to be. But I smile above me, all around me, at the God that exists with no distinction between Order and Chaos, the God that simply Is, and Loves without rules, lines, judgements. Consciousness unchained, unbound, untamed. The God that does not Know, but does not need to. This liveliness is my religion. Some, many, call it my weakness. My inability to to find great comfort in the Control, within those lines of society. But I consider it my greatest Strength. Defiance to the end.


One Response to “random expressing”

  1. I don’t know If I said it already but …Great site…keep up the good work. :) I read a lot of blogs on a daily basis and for the most part, people lack substance but, I just wanted to make a quick comment to say I’m glad I found your blog. Thanks, :)

    A definite great read….

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